The Things Astrid Carries

I wake up each morning and without thinking I pick up the things that I always need and carry them everywhere with me. They are things that are personal to me and that only I can carry. Five things that I always carry? Hmmmm....

First of all one thing that I can never take off my neck and feel naked without is my gold coin necklace. It's funny because sometimes people ask me what is inscribed on it I tell them I don't know. Honestly I don't, I think they are initials for something they are H R L. My dad had actually bought this necklace before I was born and when I turned 6 he gave it to me. Ever since then I have worn it and it's been with me through good and bad times. I feel as though this necklace is a lucky charm that helps me out and protects me in a way. When I'm nervous about something like a test I grab my necklace and I rub the little coin and it gives me confidence. Even though I don't know exactly what the H and L stand for I have recently found out that the reason why my father bought it was because of the R  in the middle. The R will come to be the initial of my middle name : Rubid. Therefore this necklace represents Rubid, a girl who was given this name by her father who love and takes care of her. So my necklace reminds me everyday of my father who loves me.

The reason as to why I am able to wake up each morning ,to go to school, is because I have a dream in mind. My biggest dream in life is to be able to cure cancer. I know it sounds crazy and maybe even impossible but it's the only thing that keeps me motivated to keep trying. I know that it is going to take a lot of time and a lot of effort but if I am able to believe in myself and keep trying ,I could help and give hope to those who needed. This dream helps me look forward in life and helps me realize that everything I'm doing right now is for a good reason and I'm not just wasting my time.

Tim O' Brien has his special person who is Martha, but I don't have one. I actually have two and they are two of the most important people in my life - my mom and dad. My parents are my everything and they are the reason as to why I actually even try. They lived a hard life as children and actually didn't have much of a childhood. All there lives they have worked and not for themselves but for us there children. They come home tired yet happy to come home to there children. They have raised me to be the person that I am today and have also taught me to never give up. They support me and wish only the best for me. They are my hope that I can never leave home without.

Unbreakable, Guardian and Kind Hearted.
Those three words pretty much sum me up. I have grown up so much that I just don't let anything put me down and I don't care if people say bad stuff about me. I guess this is what makes me strong enough to protect others. Many of my friends describe me as a mother because I'm always telling them what is good for them and I help them out when they need help. After all I care a lot about others and I'm pretty nice too if you get to know me. Therefore I feel like these attributions has made it possible for me to meet people that have left me with life lessons and good memories. My personality may seem cold at first but it's actually warm and only people who don't actually get to know me very well may drift away while the others stay close to me and learn who I am. Therefore each year after I get to know someone I gain a new friend.


If you were to ask me to which memories I wish I could go back to I would tell you to the memories were I'm truly happy. Which are when I was younger. When I was younger everything seemed so much easier and it a way it was soothing. It was calm yet cheery. It was probably because back then we were all still children who had no sense of purpose in life. We were just happy all the time all and slept so comfortably in the night that we wouldn't care about tomorrow. This memories are so important because they make me want to try hard in life in order to relive those happy moments in the near future. It makes me realize that I should have enjoyed more of a childhood instead of maturing so quickly. I deeply regret not doing the things that I wanted to do as a child because I felt as though I had to quickly grow up but as a child I failed to realized that at some point the rest of my life I was going to be an adult and being a child only happened once. So it makes me appreciate each day that I have and I try to be as happy as possible in order to make up for my childhood.